I'm finally enjoying a little more success than I was before. I installed a filter on my computer. All I have to do now is obey the filter. I've already sort of disobeyed it once, but not too bad.

I have finals coming up soon. I'm extremely behind. I haven't been studying for them at all. And I find myself taking on a fatalistic attitude, like I'm gonna fail anyway why even bother. I should not fail. That would be disastrous. What will I do then??? All the time from now thru monday, I must work as hard and as much as I can. Don't take the time for granted. Every time I think about how little time I have, I just wanna run away. Don't run away. I can't guarantee I'll pass. But I can try. I can try my best from now till the end of finals. And I'll trust that a higher power, God, is directing me in the right direction. If I don't pass, I wanna know that at least I did the best damn good that I could. No excuses.

What did you expect?