I find my resolution cracking all the time. As soon as I start, I see cracks in its foundation. Last night, most of the time I was supposed to be working, I was actually surfing the internet. When I went to bed (for ~ 1 hour), I began masturbating. And just now, I spent an hour incessently reading the news again. For me, there is in fact, almost no difference between reading the news and viewing porn. They both get my heart racing, lead me to lose track of time, forget everything else around me.

I'm never going to be perfect. All this is normal. Human weakness is the most normal thing in the world. So I should never get upset over any of this stuff. I should just get back to work as quickly as possible. It's a hell of a lot better to study half the time than not at all. Every little bit counts. The world is built on positive action.

So, once again, I'll refocus. I'll start keeping my schedule. I'll stop surfing the internet and only control it for critical functions. I believe in myself no matter what. I can only make progress when I have a positive attitude.

What did you expect?