I think Lisa gave me herpes. My skin is beginning to crust under the head of my penis. I won't know for sure until I get tested. I'll do that after my finals in December. I fucked up badly. I had unprotected sex with her several times. And I kept promising myself I would stop.

I completely fell apart after my quiz on wednesday. I sat at a computer reading the news for hours afterwards. Then I did the same all day yesterday - internet surfing, porn, masturbation, lying in bed, wasting my life away. I'm weak. I'm very weak. I acknowledge my weakness. It is because of my weakness that I write myself a resolution. It's because of my weakness, I have to carefully look after the information I consume. It's why I have to avoid the internet. It's why I need a strict schedule to keep myself from falling apart. We're all weak in our own way. However, if I take the correct positive steps, I can turn my weakness into strength. That is my greatest goal.

What did you expect?