FINAL RESOLUTION

It's time I make a contract and live by it. I have already been remarkable successful with a contract on several counts. It's about time I take myself extremely seriously and make myself an extremely serious contract that's deserving of the stature in life I want to carve out. For a man like myself who could be accomplishing many great things, risking procrastination is much too high a risk. It's way too easy. I just wasted the whole day. So it's time I start putting serious effort. I've been trying to keep a schedule for myself for a while. However, there hasn't been a day in my life where I've been strict enough with myself over it. I make 90 minute appointments. And usually I only keep those for 45 or 60 minutes. So I must take myself seriously. Otherwise, I have no chance to claim my own stake. The world will wash me over like a dust particle if I don't 'put my fist on the table and make my demands' as Matisyahu said. I'm not that hopeless. I can follow my goals and my resolutions. I'll do it now. I'll rev up another 40 day resolution. And once again for posterity, these are the key points:

• NO to pornography of ANY FORM, especially over the internet.
  
• NO to touching my penis.
  
• NO internet surfing unless it's in my schedule.
• NO television unless it's in my schedule (don't even turn it on).
• NO napping - I can not lie down on my bed unless I've brushed my teeth, gone to bed and scheduled sleep.
• Keep to a very strict schedule. DO NOT even give a minute away. It must be followed extremely strictly. I must do everything in my power to keep it unless something of extraordinary consequence gets in the way.

It's going to be difficult. This is more than most reasonable people put themselves through. However, I want to be someone. And I won't take no for an answer. I will go after what I want. I will take risks and put in extraordinary effort for my success and my pleasures.

This is my test of wills. This is a time for me to prove to myself and prove to the world that I'm special. I'll be the little engine that could. I'll be one that kept going, that stayed motivated even when all hope seemed to be lost. I'll be the one with an endless reservoir of hope and will. I'll be the one who always dared to dream big, who never let anyone get in his way, who never let anyone get him down. My confidence is unbreakable.

When I think about caving in, I should just think for a moment of those who inspire me: Jack Johnson, Evander Holyfield, Snoopy, Charlie Brown, even my old roommate Santos.

I deserve no less than anyone else in the world. I shall be intimidated by nobody.

What did you expect?