I spent all day masturbating, pretty much. At first, I masturbated in the morning. That broke my 40 day commitment for the day. So I decided, I might as well run with it. I started looking at some porn; a certain girl, a certain variety --- that happened to intrigue me today. I stopped after maybe 10 minutes. I knew I'd get sucked in. So I went to my room and lay on my bed. I must have masturbated 4, 5 times until 4 in the afternoon. There went my day. At least I didn't get sucked into porn. Craig Gross from xxxchurch.com says that even if you quit smoking on your own or drugs or whatever, you will not quit pornography on your own. Again, I have noone I can talk to and certainly noone I wanna talk to. So I just have to be extra strict with myself. I have to get it straight that I have to put as close a lid on porn and masturbation as I can.

I have to completely restrict myself from internet and television unless it's in my schedule.

I'll toughen up a bit. I'm gonna be a man. Remember, one hour at a time, one day at a time. Never think too far ahead. Always, learn to focus on the immediate.